Oh yeah, this could turn out so many ways

So, it's kind of late, I have to go to CBC early, and I still havent done the Bible assignment on Ephesians. Whatever, I'm pro at Bible assignments as long as they arent skits...
So, this week was, interesting. Tuesday, pretty normal from what I remember. Ran a few miles that night that felt great, did some working out, and went to sleep.
Woke up at 3:30 that night, so sick. It was not pretty. I was in and out of sleep and a stomach ache the whole day Wednesday after a long night of throwing up. Not cool, at all. Luckily it only lasted 24 hours, but by then we had called off thanksgiving on thursday, so we made the thanksgiving meal that they had on Biggest Loser the night earlier. It was pretty tasty, and yes, I do watch the Biggest Loser. Dont hate on me, a DQ Blizzard and the Biggest Loser are a Tuesday made in heaven. Except this was a special on Wednesday...but oh well.
However, this sickness knocked out my metabolism, I didnt feel like eating even when I felt good on Wednesday. I lost five pounds on Tuesday and Wednesday, Ridiculous. Now, this wouldnt be a big deal but it reminded me of what its like after ACL surgery. Which is on Wednesday. Which got me all mad because I have to lie around for a week, will have less than the appetite that I desire for a few months, because I wont be as active til I can run again, although Ill still lift weights after a week and bike after 3 weeks. So, I will lose a lot of muscle, wont be able to eat as much during Christmas time, and I do very much enjoy my sweets, and generally wont feel as good because of my lack of exercise. I dont like any of this.
Notice I did not say gain fat. I might gain a tiny bit in the one week im just laying around, but I am thoroughly convinced I will never be fat. I do have a nice sweet tooth, so Travis tells me all the time I willl get fat, but the truth is when it's not good for me to eat, I dont eat. If I'm working out a lot, getting plenty of exercise, I will overeat occasionally because I know i will burn it off. When I'm not working out I just stop eating that much. I noticed this last time I tore my ACL, I would get full faster and really not have the room to overeat. It was really weird, I was just fine and then boom I'd get full. And any time I dont work out I am not very happy so I couldnt stand putting on fat. Ever. So, I realize that paragraph probably bored some of you to death, but I wanted to type it. So there, its my blog so Ill do what I want.
So Im working really hard to be joyful even when I dont feel like it, because I kind of feel screwed over right now. I'm really uncertain about the surgery, its gonna suck, and I dont know how it will turn out in a year. A lot of times the second ACL repair isnt great for going back into sports, but I really want to play sports. There isnt much research on how well people return to sport after a 2nd ACL tear. Obviously, people are doing it(Michael Redd and Robbie Hummel to name a few), but there is no real documentation about it.This makes me incredibly nervous and kind of sad about my future, but I know that's not what God wants. I know He has a plan for me but its hard to see it right now. I believe He will use me some awesome way because of what I've been through, but what if He doesnt? What if I get to being old, look back, and say, "yeah those two ACL tears in high school never really led to anything, they just sucked." See, there I go again worrying about what's going to happen in the future, but I know that's not in my control and I just have to trust God. I'll find out what was up when I get to heaven or maybe sooner. It's going to be interesting but I know all in all my life will be okay.
Because everything other than athletics seems to be alright for me. CBC finishes up next week, I only have a few class periods left and then some finals that I think will be easy. I am done with college applications, and spent a few hours today doing 4 more, to bring my total to 8. I dont like applications, especially when I dont have a desire to go to the school. Im quite sure I will be at Pacific or George Fox next year, but supposedly you can use other colleges scholarship offers as bargaining chips to bring down college cost. Like say Whitworth gives me an awesome scholarship, but I really dont want to go there, I can use it to say to George Fox hey I want to go to you guys but look what Whitworth is giving me? You wanna, you know, give me a little bit more off? eh?
So hopefully that works out like that because I dont want to go to Carrol, Whitworth, Linfield, and I dont know much about Corban but I dont have much desire to go there at all.
I am cool with Seattle Pacific, and quite okay with Westmont, since it is great academically and located in Santa Barbara. Yeah, I would not miss the snow at all. But its expensive and I didnt apply in time for early action, so I might not know anything more until like February to April.
Quick recap, I did have Thanksgiving Friday instead, it was delicious, but I didnt really eat a whole ton. Saturday I went to Travis house and had a pretty good time with more people than I want to type right now. Todays sermon was pretty much about what I already said I was worrying about. Trusting in God through storms. It also used Matthew 11:28-30, which if you dont know is the verse used for the song Come All Ye Weary by Thrice.  I realize this is not the first time I have mentioned this song, but really, its so good and I like thrice a lot. Their music is so sick and they are basically what I would be like if I toured around the country. Totally chill, not party-ers, they just enjoy playing music for people. It's awesome. And if you have read victors most recent blog the song The Weight by Thrice has a lot of the same ideas, and its a cool sounding song too.
Alright, good night. Keep me and my crippled knee in your prayers please