It's very hard for me to not be able to move well. I am allowed full weightbearing now but am not allowed to walk without crutches til i can walk without a limp. That helps a lot for me not feeling too bad, but it still makes me feel bad at basketball practice. I dont know if I've made this clear or not, but my drive to improve is higher than your average person. I've said I like going 100% at stuff, and I enjoy practicing like that. I want to get as good as I can as fast as I can, screwing around on the court is not something I spend much time doing. Okay, so I am not serious the whole time, because come on I have to practice my underhand Terry Watson signature shot a few times every once in a while, but for the most part I like to work hard. If at the end of your workout you cannot say you got better, you wasted your time. So this is very hard to do when I am on crutches. I can shoot short range shots, working on focus and form, and I can do some ballhandling(which I should get to do more of this week and on), but it's hard to feel like I got a whole lot better, especially compared to people on the court for 2 and a half hours a day. So I am struggling with that right now, I think it will improve over the next few weeks as I get more capable of exercise, but its not fun currently.
I already mentioned it is not easy to watch games for liberty, but it's hard for me to even watch high school highlights too. I realized this yesterday. I always wanted to be one of the guys in the highlights, and luckily it did happen a bit last year, but it just feels wrong because I just think "I should be out there doing that." It's just weird, and it's kind of hard at times.
This week I got accepted to Carrol College in Montana, and Linfield College down in Oregon. I like getting accepted to schools, even if I have no real intention of going there. Carrol, is WAY cheaper than the other colleges I want to go to. They already have a less expensive tuition, and they gave me a beastly scholarship, but its a strong Catholic school, and its in freaking Montana, so I really dont want to go there. Linfield, as I mentioned in earlier blogs, was really boring when I visited there, and they have frustrated me throughout the application process. They have sent me scholarship stuff, tons of emails about events, but didnt even tell me if I was accepted til today. And even in the acceptance letter, they didnt say what my annual scholarship would be. Really unorganized, I am unimpressed.
I'm kind of waiting for snl to be on, its the Christmas special, I woke up at 11 today, and I'd really like the pancakes I ate at Denny's to digest some more. But some people(Jacob, Christian, Nathan, and Hannah) are not cool because they said they would go to Dennys and then decided to go to McDonald's at the last minute. Denny's wins every time, I dont even understand how you would want to go to McDonald's over a million other restraunts. Terrible.
Anyway, the first graders are thoroughly disturbed by my crutches. Lots of staring and whispering to each other "he has crutches." I can only laugh as they wonder what I did. If one of them asks me Im going to tell them that I didnt eat my vegetables as a kid.
That's all.
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