That's basically what I realized as I was waiting for midnight to come around last night. Looking ahead, this might be the biggest year of my life, event-wise. And, so far, it looks like they should be good events. Bittersweet at some points, awkward at some points, but overall, pretty nice. I'm talking about graduating, leaving home 9 months out of the year for college, going off, away from my family and long time friends, and then adding, definitely not replacing, some new friends. I will spend about 2/3 of the year rehabbing my knee, and I will work on bball in hopes to make a college team.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.- Proverbs 16:9
Here's the deal. All of the stuff I listed above, I want to look back in a year and say, "Yeah that went how I planned." But I dont know that's how it will happen. I dont know for sure what college I will be at, though I am getting closer to making my plans, I dont know what's going to happen with my knee, and there are a million other things that I have no clue how they will go down (yeah I just used the phrase 'go down' get over it). Hahaha if you had asked me last year, I would have had a completely different idea of how I thought 2010 would go. I didnt even know if I wanted to play college ball or not, much less that i would tear my ACL again.
What never fails, is that the Lord determines my steps, and He will be with me through 2011, I can say that with 100% certainty. And you know what, as long as I keep growing closer to Him, I dont really care how the rest of the year goes. I could not go to college, I could tear my ACL graft again, and even though I have absolutely no desire for either of those things happening, as long as Jesus Christ as with me, I dont care.
Now, I was reading in 2 Corinthians last night, I just started it, and in 2 Corinthians 1:3-11 Paul talks about suffering and comfort. It's pretty deep stuff actually, I dont want to butcher the whole things meaning by trying to paraphrase it for you, you can read it. However, in verse 7 it says "Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort." So, I hate harping on the whole ACL issue, but as I have said before, its a big deal for me so I think about it a lot. Good stuff can come out of it, but I do view it as a suffering, and it is always good to be reminded that there is comfort at some point. I've learned a ton from these knee injuries, I think grown a lot spiritually and learned a lot about myself, but I kind of want to move away from knee sufferings haha.
So, my resolutions for this year. I am going to skip college and graduation, those dont count as resolving to graduate and go to college. Those have kind of been in the blueprints since, ummm, birth. My resolutions are to 1.add to my faith and knowledge of God, 2. Work hard and make a college bball team, 3. Record an album, 4. Get more comfortable performing musically. There's probably some other things, but that's all I can think of now to put on a list. Again, these are all hopes of mine, and we will see how they turn out.
I am working on another two songs at the moment, hopefully they turn out well.
Excited to see what 2011 holds, Ron
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