Player Comparisons

I havent posted in a good amount of days, and I was off of school for most of those days so you would think I'd have time to post. Well, I guess I was busy, but apparently Im not as busy as most people who write blogs, because they hardly write anymore. So I hope my blog is enough for you guys because I feel like the lone blogger right about now.
Friday I went up to Spokane for some 2B State Basketball with Bryan and Victor and my parents. It was a pretty nice experience. Drexler Doherty on Neah Bay was probably the best player in all the tournaments. He was his team, taking them to the title game and dropping 31 in that game against Sunnyside Christian. Jimmy Jimmicum, also on neah bay, wins the award for most ridiculous name, by a long shot. It was sort of hard to watch 2B guys sometimes, knowing what could have been if me and/or some other people had played this year. But there is no point in wasting time on "could have."
I got to see Cole Ramey play, who will probably go to George Fox next year, so that was fun to see. I still fully believe that I can make that team, and I wont say that I am better or worse than Cole. Although I am obviously worse right now since I cant jump.
Well, I sort of can jump still, I managed to touch the rim yesterday off of my right foot, first time Ive done that since before surgery. However, though I had a great bball workout yesterday, I think I pushed it too hard since my knee kind of bugged me when I tried to do physical therapy today. So I just decided to give my knee another day of rest. It feels really good most of the time though, so I was sort of surprised by the bit of pain today.
I am sort of struggling with this idea of fighting for a spot on a basketball team thing. I am very competitive, if you couldnt tell, so I am always watching and comparing myself to others playing. But I know from the Bible that I am not supposed to think of myself more highly than I ought, and thats always a danger. I also learned at PGC to drop comparisons and focus on my improvement. BUT IT"S SO HARD. Especially when I am injured and cant go out and do my thing. The problem is that I really dont know how good I am anymore. I know how good I was, but I am a much better ballhandler now, so I dont know how that will transfer, what skills I need to rebuild once I get healthy, I am just very conscientious about the whole thing. I dont want to compare myself to others, but I need to know how good I should get. I dont want to compete viciously against people that could become teammates, but I really want a spot on a team. It is all difficult to find the right balance where I am getting better, have a realistic perception of my goal, and can still make sure my ultimate focus is on pleasing God. I could use some prayer for a way to find that balance.
Thanks, thats all for tonight. I know it was a bit short.