Thinking about thoughts

Man I could make some good money if I got paid for basketball and or music. I am looking for a job, so I guess I will start hunting this week, probably first stopping by optometrist offices and then movie onto to normal teenage jobs. Except I refuse to work at a fast food restaurant. It just is not going to happen. Coffee? sure, but I will under no circumstances be flipping burgers.
On another note, I was flipping through some songs I had written, and wrote this really sweet riff for a song I havent seen in a while. It kind of reminds me of the Red Hot Chili Peppers, or a Rage Against the Machine riff, but I will not even pretend that I can make a song like them. But I am pretty excited about developing that more, even though I think that was enough for tonight on that song.
I wonder if I will be able to look back in ten years or even five years and be even remotely proud of the songs that I have written. I know I still have a few songs from a few years ago. Terrible. So terrible. I guess you get better with practice but man oh man I can't believe I wrote some of those lines. Oh well that is in the past and I hope I am done with that crap and not just deceiving myself into thinking my newer stuff is any better.
So I went to the club today and filmed my shot. My form looks fine, same as usual except I think I will have more range when my legs are strong, thanks to weightlifting. The one thing I am doing wrong(besides obviously not bending my legs enough, which is common for recovery), is that I am jumping to the side a bit when I shoot. Again, I think this has to do with leg strength since I am jumping slightly to the left. So I will just focus on it and it should get better over time.
Tuesday I am going to Portland with my boys for Blazers vs Warriors. You could say I am pretty excited. Steph Curry is kind of cool...I guess... he definitely didnt make my top ten list last year, and definitely wasn't number 1...
So Seth, the high school leader, spoke at Bethel's main service this week, and I thought it was pretty darn good. It was about being satisfied simple in Jesus. One thing that he said though, that I am sort of thinking about, is that you know your idols by where your mind goes when you have time to think. I mean, that makes sense to me, and it something I have been trying to change for a while. Because I think about basketball a lot, but if you are a regular reader you know that my current conquest is to set God first in basketball and worship him while I play. I guess I just have a hard time seeing how your thoughts can go to Jesus whenever you have spare time. I think that your beliefs in Jesus should impact every decision that you make, and I often stop myself when I find myself thinking of personal idols, and remember that's not important. But I never sit there thinking, "yeah, God is cool, yeah." You know what I mean? I suppose I think about his grace a good bit, and I remember Bible verses some, but I don't see how I would increase that in a useful way. I don't think "Yeah, God is cool, yeah" is a very useful thought. It is important to know for sure, and it is a good reminder, and we were made to worship Him, but I feel like at a certain point it is best to learn more about Him and His awesomeness than sit there is simple spiritual truths that you learned in first grade. Ugh, I don't know where I am going with this anymore, oh well. Maybe you can agree with me in this confusing paragraph, maybe you think I am dumb for thinking like this, but I will never "sit down content with anything less than perfection."