What is up yall? Yeah I like typing things that I would kill myself for saying.
I am currently 1350 shots off of my 15000 made shots by graduation. I don't know if I will make it, since I only have like 4 or 5 more days to shoot. I hope to muster a few shots over the senior trip, but I am not counting on any. I am also at 19.5 hrs of ballhandling, but I don't really have a goal for that. I think 20 hours sounds pretty good, but I will go over that. This is set from Presidents day, by the way. I don't tell you that to brag, but I think I told you guys I was setting a goal for myself, and I wanted to give an update. It is not the goals that I originally wanted, but the point is not necessarily to reach the goals, its to challenge myself to get better. So I have accomplished that I believe.
This week was interesting at the club, because all of the good ballers seem to be coming back from college. I kind of want to play them. But I did not expect to see Matt Bouldin there. For those of you who don't know(and shame on you for not knowing), Matt Bouldin played for Gonzaga for 4 years, and now plays in the D-League. Or at least that is where he finished this year. So basically, he is a stud at basketball. So I was minding my business, doing my ab workout, when I saw him, and I was like is that Matt Bouldin?? Sure enough. He is huge, for sure an elite athlete. However, I feel like I was one of the only people who knew who he was. I was the only person I saw who went up and talked to him(asked why he was in Richland). So I was sitting there like freaking out, and no one else seemed to care. I mean, I remember in 8th grade, when Mitson was trying to get me to shoot on the side of my head, I was not going to have any bit of that, and my dad was like, look at Gonzaga's new freshman, Matt Bouldin, who shoots the ball over his eye, just like you are supposed to. So yeah, I knew who he was, but maybe 2 of the 20 something people in the gym even seemed to take notice of the 6'5" GUARD shooting around. Maybe I am the only one who watches college basketball. And wow that turned into a long paragraph.
So this was my last week of high school. Yeah. It was good I suppose. And senioritis is in full swing, because I am so done with high school. I have some homework to do tomorrow and the next day, labs and a paper for IS Bible, and I have to study for my Physics final. So I will do some of it tomorrow, some of it on Monday on my way to Spokane for my 6 month knee check up. Then on Tuesday I will take my final, go to Liberty to turn in my labs and the paper, say goodbye to the first graders, and that will be it. Wednesday I leave for L.A. on the senior trip, then I have a few days of graduation practice and that's it. That is really weird, but it is time. Sometimes there are things like that, where you say yeah I liked this, but it is just time for it to end and move on.
I don't think that friendships should be like that though. Yeah some people are just not good to be around, so that friendship should end, and some just fade away, like there wasn't much in common and you just had similar friends, but a lot just evolve overtime. It bugs to see friendships that have just come to bitter ends, and I had to see a bit of that this week. It just sucks. It makes you feel kind of sick, even if it doesn't directly involve you.
I think that is all for tonight, I don't have a ton to say.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
God Put A Smile Upon Your Face
Well its been a week since my last post, which still makes me one of the more consistent bloggers.
So I think some stuff happened this week. yeah maybe.
Prom was pretty sweet I won't lie. Solid, solid event to end high school dances. Even if that storm was crazy and made us miss a limo stop and have to move dinner indoors. Amanda was a great date, the event was fine, even if we do basically the same thing each prom, and the dance was the best dance of the ones that I have been to. All in all, a pretty sweet night. Oh and white tuxes are legit.
I am trying to remember what else even happened this week. I have spent a lot of this week pretty stoked spiritually. I have heard quite a few good sermons this week, so that was awesome. I've gotten a lot of stuff to think and pray about, and I really like learning, you know, putting some stuff in the ol' toolbelt, to use a nice cliche. Mmm I just get excited thinking about it, and I wonder what God is going to do with it.
So New Vintage yesterday was cool, I have a few things to say about it. First off, I played guitar there for the first time, and we had a great time in worship, which was great. A bunch of people complemented me, which I thought was odd because I personally think I did horrible, but okay. Leo did a good job leading.
Secondly, we had a guest speaker who gave a great word. It was about Elisha, leaving his field, his farming, behind, in order to follow Elijah and do God's work. The point was, there was nothing wrong with Elisha's life before, he was a farmer, but out of nowhere, God gave him the opportunity to step out and do something impacting. The point was even though your life might be good, don't overlook what God's doing, He might have something different planned for you, so don't be afraid to step out of comfort zone, your field per say, and follow him. (Obviously led by God leave your field, don't do something just to do something). So we were challenged with that at the end in a short term way, how are we going to step out and make summer of 2011 different than others, but all I could think was that I'm getting ready after summer to step almost totally out of my comfort zone and go to college where I know next to no one. Basketball is a comfort zone for me, but I'm stepping out of that to try and play at the next level. I mean, when was the last time I wasn't guaranteed a spot on a team? High school I already knew what team I'd be on every year, knew my teammates, knew the coach. Then I have been thinking, where am I going to go to church? I don't know, but I know I should get plugged in quickly. So yeah, I will be getting out of my field next year for sure.
I also would like to get into more guitar playing soon. Hopefully this summer. I guess i just like to see constant improvement in what I do. Heck, I will go on this tangent from the odd start to this paragraph. I like seeing tangible improvements in my activities. Obviously not when I am chilling with friends, that would be weird to mark improvement in relationships(can you say stalker). But other than hanging out with friends and watching tv some, everything else I do involves improvement. I work out and eat a certain way to keep myself in improving shape, I practice basketball, I do Biblical/spiritual reading/watching in order to improve my knowledge and relationship with Christ, and I sing and play guitar to improve at music. I like all of those things, but I could not be satisfied with staying the same at any of them(at least for a long while in bball and fitness). I suppose that is a good thing.
So I think some stuff happened this week. yeah maybe.
Prom was pretty sweet I won't lie. Solid, solid event to end high school dances. Even if that storm was crazy and made us miss a limo stop and have to move dinner indoors. Amanda was a great date, the event was fine, even if we do basically the same thing each prom, and the dance was the best dance of the ones that I have been to. All in all, a pretty sweet night. Oh and white tuxes are legit.
I am trying to remember what else even happened this week. I have spent a lot of this week pretty stoked spiritually. I have heard quite a few good sermons this week, so that was awesome. I've gotten a lot of stuff to think and pray about, and I really like learning, you know, putting some stuff in the ol' toolbelt, to use a nice cliche. Mmm I just get excited thinking about it, and I wonder what God is going to do with it.
So New Vintage yesterday was cool, I have a few things to say about it. First off, I played guitar there for the first time, and we had a great time in worship, which was great. A bunch of people complemented me, which I thought was odd because I personally think I did horrible, but okay. Leo did a good job leading.
Secondly, we had a guest speaker who gave a great word. It was about Elisha, leaving his field, his farming, behind, in order to follow Elijah and do God's work. The point was, there was nothing wrong with Elisha's life before, he was a farmer, but out of nowhere, God gave him the opportunity to step out and do something impacting. The point was even though your life might be good, don't overlook what God's doing, He might have something different planned for you, so don't be afraid to step out of comfort zone, your field per say, and follow him. (Obviously led by God leave your field, don't do something just to do something). So we were challenged with that at the end in a short term way, how are we going to step out and make summer of 2011 different than others, but all I could think was that I'm getting ready after summer to step almost totally out of my comfort zone and go to college where I know next to no one. Basketball is a comfort zone for me, but I'm stepping out of that to try and play at the next level. I mean, when was the last time I wasn't guaranteed a spot on a team? High school I already knew what team I'd be on every year, knew my teammates, knew the coach. Then I have been thinking, where am I going to go to church? I don't know, but I know I should get plugged in quickly. So yeah, I will be getting out of my field next year for sure.
I also would like to get into more guitar playing soon. Hopefully this summer. I guess i just like to see constant improvement in what I do. Heck, I will go on this tangent from the odd start to this paragraph. I like seeing tangible improvements in my activities. Obviously not when I am chilling with friends, that would be weird to mark improvement in relationships(can you say stalker). But other than hanging out with friends and watching tv some, everything else I do involves improvement. I work out and eat a certain way to keep myself in improving shape, I practice basketball, I do Biblical/spiritual reading/watching in order to improve my knowledge and relationship with Christ, and I sing and play guitar to improve at music. I like all of those things, but I could not be satisfied with staying the same at any of them(at least for a long while in bball and fitness). I suppose that is a good thing.
Monday, May 9, 2011
School, Girls, yes there is a comma between those two words
BBQ. Boring, but done. Car wash, slightly maddening, but done. I only have one more work day til I am done with Liberty serving. Oh and the dream center in L.A. for our senior trip, but other than that, I am done.
Ummm I have ten days of high school left. That is weird, but I am more than ready to be done. Senior year has turned out to be incredibly easy. Then next year I will have to work, a lot, but I am okay with that. I just want to start doing school that I actually want to do. Like I chose the classes. I know I have a bit before I get through required classes, but it is still nice to have some options.
Today was Senior Skip day. It was pretty legit, I won't lie. I don't know what everyone else thought, but I enjoyed it. We started last night by watching Green Hornet at Hannahs house, and then today we played a bunch of wiffle ball and volleyball, had lunch, had frappuccinos, you know, good stuff like that. I would like to do some more outdoor activities like that this summer.
However, I am excited to get back to the club tomorrow and get back to my regular diet. I ate so much crap this weekend I cant take anymore. I am at the point where I just want all of it out of my system so I can feel...clean or something. I don't want to go out to eat for another few weeks, even though I think I am going to Mongolian on Friday, at least that is semi healthy. Or at least can be. I hate that you can make virtually the same thing at home as you can get at a restaurant, except what you made at home will be way better for you because it doesnt have tons of extra grease and stuff. I want to work out.
Do you ever think about what type of person you want to marry? Not who, but what type of person? (What type of woman in my case, but hey I'll keep my questions gender neutral so as to include all readers.) I know I do, but I can never totally figure it out, which I suppose is a good thing at this point in my life. Like all I can figure out is strong Christian, more outgoing than me, reasonably intelligent, and preferably values athletics/exercise, since I value it so much I feel like it is somewhat important. Nice and vague requirements that describe a multitude of girls, yet I only want one for my life. My parents taught me at a young age that I need to "marry up," not in wealth or looks, but marry someone who will challenge me to grow closer to God every day. So that is most important for sure. I'm really not sure why I said all of that, but whatever, it's pretty important to me.
I know this was a short blog, but I will not lie, I am quite tuckered out after a long few days. Biggest Loser and The Voice are on tomorrow, I just thought you might want to know that.
Ummm I have ten days of high school left. That is weird, but I am more than ready to be done. Senior year has turned out to be incredibly easy. Then next year I will have to work, a lot, but I am okay with that. I just want to start doing school that I actually want to do. Like I chose the classes. I know I have a bit before I get through required classes, but it is still nice to have some options.
Today was Senior Skip day. It was pretty legit, I won't lie. I don't know what everyone else thought, but I enjoyed it. We started last night by watching Green Hornet at Hannahs house, and then today we played a bunch of wiffle ball and volleyball, had lunch, had frappuccinos, you know, good stuff like that. I would like to do some more outdoor activities like that this summer.
However, I am excited to get back to the club tomorrow and get back to my regular diet. I ate so much crap this weekend I cant take anymore. I am at the point where I just want all of it out of my system so I can feel...clean or something. I don't want to go out to eat for another few weeks, even though I think I am going to Mongolian on Friday, at least that is semi healthy. Or at least can be. I hate that you can make virtually the same thing at home as you can get at a restaurant, except what you made at home will be way better for you because it doesnt have tons of extra grease and stuff. I want to work out.
Do you ever think about what type of person you want to marry? Not who, but what type of person? (What type of woman in my case, but hey I'll keep my questions gender neutral so as to include all readers.) I know I do, but I can never totally figure it out, which I suppose is a good thing at this point in my life. Like all I can figure out is strong Christian, more outgoing than me, reasonably intelligent, and preferably values athletics/exercise, since I value it so much I feel like it is somewhat important. Nice and vague requirements that describe a multitude of girls, yet I only want one for my life. My parents taught me at a young age that I need to "marry up," not in wealth or looks, but marry someone who will challenge me to grow closer to God every day. So that is most important for sure. I'm really not sure why I said all of that, but whatever, it's pretty important to me.
I know this was a short blog, but I will not lie, I am quite tuckered out after a long few days. Biggest Loser and The Voice are on tomorrow, I just thought you might want to know that.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
The First Few Days
Have you ever noticed when you make a commitment, it always seems hardest within the next few days. Like not just starting a diet and oh I just have cravings or something(no I do not have experience with that, are you calling me fat?!), but like unusually difficult situations pop up? Here is my point, I wrote that blog about forgetting stuff and encouraging yourself, and then either the next day or the day after, I have a really good memory of days as you can tell, I ended up playing horse with Mark Wilson at the club. I'm well aware that I am an inferior basketball player in that match up, but really, I sucked. so bad. So after getting thrashed in 2 out of 3 games by Mark and Lamar with his stupid bank threes, I did fine the last game, I was so angry with myself because I was so off. And then I was angry because I was angry about a game of horse. I even did the count ten things I did right in my head just to make myself feel better, and it actually did help. I looked back and saw why I was off, because my feet were not good on my follow through, I was sort of leaning back on my shots, and not taking them at full speed. All reoccurring problems for me that always seem to get me off kilter. I am trying my best to forget my failure now and move on, I wasnt going to even tell you that story, but I thought it was a good example. It takes 20 something days to make a habit, so I have a while to go before I can make a more positive attitude a habit.
Tomorrow is the grandparents day cookout, saturday is the car wash, and I think next Sunday I will work at Dr. Fischers office. So yeah, you could say I'm about ready to graduate so I can stop doing stuff for Liberty. I realize it is my senior trip so I shouldnt be complaining, but come on I did my job by working a few times. That sounds terrible but I think it is just my final bit of frustration from Liberty and waiting to graduate. This just shows how poor our school is!!!(I realize that is Bryan's line).
I am supposed to find another song comparable to In Exile and Come All You Weary by the end of the year for chapel, and I have no idea what song I will use. Yeah there is a song or two by thrice I could use, but I really want to use a different artist. I am on the hunt.
I haven't done even close to the amount of recording that I wanted to do this year, I have somehow been busy even though I haven't had much schoolwork at all this year. Maybe I'll do some during the summer, but I still need to find a job. Man, do I have a hard life haha.
I am just a helpful guy this year for prom asks. I helped Vic, and yesterday I helped bryan ask Brittney. Yes he bought me a blizzard, yes it did need to be wiped a second time for a while before I got it, no Bryan, you can not have a dilly bar, but yes, yes I did by Mylanta Extra Strength Gas cherry flavored tablets. Maybe not my proudest moment, but whatever, it was definitely not weird for me to walk up to the register at Walgreens and buy medicine for gas... It worked out in the end though, because Oh Mylanta, brittney did end up saying yes. Surprise, they definitely weren't already going with each other...(yes I just used two ellipses in the same paragraph, so what?)
I'm so sick of complacency in my Christianity. I write these papers for Bible every week and each week I seem to find something like "Yeah let's be unified, or inviting to people, aware of what we believe and why, cognizant of our people surrounding us and how we are perceived, etc." Then it seems like every week nothing changes and it just bothers me. I can see myself gaining knowledge and stuff to affirm my beliefs I suppose, but my actions don't seem to show it, and it infuriates me. I feel like my attitude is right, my heart is on the money being hungry for God, but I just don't feel like I have accomplished anything. I want more.
Also, I made a tumblr for no reason. I don't even really know what it is, but whatever I guess I will figure it out. Even though from what I can tell it is a blogging thing, maybe I will just follow bands with it.
Tomorrow is the grandparents day cookout, saturday is the car wash, and I think next Sunday I will work at Dr. Fischers office. So yeah, you could say I'm about ready to graduate so I can stop doing stuff for Liberty. I realize it is my senior trip so I shouldnt be complaining, but come on I did my job by working a few times. That sounds terrible but I think it is just my final bit of frustration from Liberty and waiting to graduate. This just shows how poor our school is!!!(I realize that is Bryan's line).
I am supposed to find another song comparable to In Exile and Come All You Weary by the end of the year for chapel, and I have no idea what song I will use. Yeah there is a song or two by thrice I could use, but I really want to use a different artist. I am on the hunt.
I haven't done even close to the amount of recording that I wanted to do this year, I have somehow been busy even though I haven't had much schoolwork at all this year. Maybe I'll do some during the summer, but I still need to find a job. Man, do I have a hard life haha.
I am just a helpful guy this year for prom asks. I helped Vic, and yesterday I helped bryan ask Brittney. Yes he bought me a blizzard, yes it did need to be wiped a second time for a while before I got it, no Bryan, you can not have a dilly bar, but yes, yes I did by Mylanta Extra Strength Gas cherry flavored tablets. Maybe not my proudest moment, but whatever, it was definitely not weird for me to walk up to the register at Walgreens and buy medicine for gas... It worked out in the end though, because Oh Mylanta, brittney did end up saying yes. Surprise, they definitely weren't already going with each other...(yes I just used two ellipses in the same paragraph, so what?)
I'm so sick of complacency in my Christianity. I write these papers for Bible every week and each week I seem to find something like "Yeah let's be unified, or inviting to people, aware of what we believe and why, cognizant of our people surrounding us and how we are perceived, etc." Then it seems like every week nothing changes and it just bothers me. I can see myself gaining knowledge and stuff to affirm my beliefs I suppose, but my actions don't seem to show it, and it infuriates me. I feel like my attitude is right, my heart is on the money being hungry for God, but I just don't feel like I have accomplished anything. I want more.
Also, I made a tumblr for no reason. I don't even really know what it is, but whatever I guess I will figure it out. Even though from what I can tell it is a blogging thing, maybe I will just follow bands with it.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Confidence
"But still I know I can't say much because I know we are all the same. Oh yes, we all seek out to satisfy those thrills... Oh no there aint no rest for the wicked, until we close our eyes for good." Never thought you would learn a lesson from Cage the Elephant huh? I don't want to talk about this too much, but yes, I am going to talk about Osama Bin Laden. I'll be honest, I was a bit shocked at how happy people were that he died. It kind of disturbs me. Like obviously I am happy that he cannot wreak havoc anymore, but really, I am like 99.99999% sure that guy is going to hell. I wouldnt wish that on anyone. Yeah he was a horrible man, but so am I. I've never killed anyone, much less thousands, but anything less than perfect means you deserve hell. Without Christ we are dead inside, and despite what Princess Bride tells you, there is not a mostly dead and dead. That is enough of saying what people have already told you.
I finished the PGC videos, and the last video was on confidence. It was solid. I love the quote from some famous psychologist named william james "people tend to become what they think about themselves." So if you just focus on negative stuff, like say my shot being off, my shot will probably be off. That sounds so elementary but it is pretty hard after games not to focus on the shots that you miss. I know I focus on them more than I focus on made shots, and that is where this quote is helpful. Mark Twain said "the inability to forget is infinitely more devastating than the inability to remember." Michael Jordan allowed himself 15 min after games to focus on negative stuff, to learn from it, and then he said he never thought about it again. You are not going to have any confidence if you hate how you play, so one more quote is "It's okay to be your biggest critic, as long as you are also your biggest fan." So the lady in the PGC videos said she spent a whole offseason where when she was done with pickup games, she would write down ten positive things she did.
I am not going to do that, but I am focusing more on the positives I am doing during practice and trying to focus on what I love about the game. So say I'll have a nice move into quick jumper? I am pretty excited. This perspective seems to work, and the other day I felt solid joy when doing my drills, which made me realize that I don't care what anyone, coach or player, tells me about my game, whether I can play or not, I am going to keep playing because I just love playing basketball. If I can do something where I can feel real joy, almost a worship experience where I can say "God, this gift you have given me is awesome, and I love doing it," I think I will continue to do it. And, of course, I think of Scott Pilgrim when I say stuff like that. Ron earned the power of self respect!!(red flaming sword comes out of my chest hahaha.)
Okay so in more trivial news my knee is coming along, my bball has been coming along, and I am almost done with senior year. I am pretty stoked.
I asked Amanda to prom yesterday, with a lovely song written by yours truly, so I am excited for that too.
I think it is funny when people dont understand why I do what I do. Somewhat annoying sometimes but funny too. I'll explain. I don't talk all the time. Even if I am hanging out with people. People seem to like to talk more than me, and I don't really want to talk if I have nothing to talk about. I think about stuff a lot, but not everything I think about needs to be said. Or should be said. It doesn't mean I don't have fine social skills, it just means I like verses like Ecclesiastes 6:11 "The more the words, the less the meaning, and how does that profit anyone?"
Well that is enough words for tonight
I finished the PGC videos, and the last video was on confidence. It was solid. I love the quote from some famous psychologist named william james "people tend to become what they think about themselves." So if you just focus on negative stuff, like say my shot being off, my shot will probably be off. That sounds so elementary but it is pretty hard after games not to focus on the shots that you miss. I know I focus on them more than I focus on made shots, and that is where this quote is helpful. Mark Twain said "the inability to forget is infinitely more devastating than the inability to remember." Michael Jordan allowed himself 15 min after games to focus on negative stuff, to learn from it, and then he said he never thought about it again. You are not going to have any confidence if you hate how you play, so one more quote is "It's okay to be your biggest critic, as long as you are also your biggest fan." So the lady in the PGC videos said she spent a whole offseason where when she was done with pickup games, she would write down ten positive things she did.
I am not going to do that, but I am focusing more on the positives I am doing during practice and trying to focus on what I love about the game. So say I'll have a nice move into quick jumper? I am pretty excited. This perspective seems to work, and the other day I felt solid joy when doing my drills, which made me realize that I don't care what anyone, coach or player, tells me about my game, whether I can play or not, I am going to keep playing because I just love playing basketball. If I can do something where I can feel real joy, almost a worship experience where I can say "God, this gift you have given me is awesome, and I love doing it," I think I will continue to do it. And, of course, I think of Scott Pilgrim when I say stuff like that. Ron earned the power of self respect!!(red flaming sword comes out of my chest hahaha.)
Okay so in more trivial news my knee is coming along, my bball has been coming along, and I am almost done with senior year. I am pretty stoked.
I asked Amanda to prom yesterday, with a lovely song written by yours truly, so I am excited for that too.
I think it is funny when people dont understand why I do what I do. Somewhat annoying sometimes but funny too. I'll explain. I don't talk all the time. Even if I am hanging out with people. People seem to like to talk more than me, and I don't really want to talk if I have nothing to talk about. I think about stuff a lot, but not everything I think about needs to be said. Or should be said. It doesn't mean I don't have fine social skills, it just means I like verses like Ecclesiastes 6:11 "The more the words, the less the meaning, and how does that profit anyone?"
Well that is enough words for tonight
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