Have you ever noticed when you make a commitment, it always seems hardest within the next few days. Like not just starting a diet and oh I just have cravings or something(no I do not have experience with that, are you calling me fat?!), but like unusually difficult situations pop up? Here is my point, I wrote that blog about forgetting stuff and encouraging yourself, and then either the next day or the day after, I have a really good memory of days as you can tell, I ended up playing horse with Mark Wilson at the club. I'm well aware that I am an inferior basketball player in that match up, but really, I sucked. so bad. So after getting thrashed in 2 out of 3 games by Mark and Lamar with his stupid bank threes, I did fine the last game, I was so angry with myself because I was so off. And then I was angry because I was angry about a game of horse. I even did the count ten things I did right in my head just to make myself feel better, and it actually did help. I looked back and saw why I was off, because my feet were not good on my follow through, I was sort of leaning back on my shots, and not taking them at full speed. All reoccurring problems for me that always seem to get me off kilter. I am trying my best to forget my failure now and move on, I wasnt going to even tell you that story, but I thought it was a good example. It takes 20 something days to make a habit, so I have a while to go before I can make a more positive attitude a habit.
Tomorrow is the grandparents day cookout, saturday is the car wash, and I think next Sunday I will work at Dr. Fischers office. So yeah, you could say I'm about ready to graduate so I can stop doing stuff for Liberty. I realize it is my senior trip so I shouldnt be complaining, but come on I did my job by working a few times. That sounds terrible but I think it is just my final bit of frustration from Liberty and waiting to graduate. This just shows how poor our school is!!!(I realize that is Bryan's line).
I am supposed to find another song comparable to In Exile and Come All You Weary by the end of the year for chapel, and I have no idea what song I will use. Yeah there is a song or two by thrice I could use, but I really want to use a different artist. I am on the hunt.
I haven't done even close to the amount of recording that I wanted to do this year, I have somehow been busy even though I haven't had much schoolwork at all this year. Maybe I'll do some during the summer, but I still need to find a job. Man, do I have a hard life haha.
I am just a helpful guy this year for prom asks. I helped Vic, and yesterday I helped bryan ask Brittney. Yes he bought me a blizzard, yes it did need to be wiped a second time for a while before I got it, no Bryan, you can not have a dilly bar, but yes, yes I did by Mylanta Extra Strength Gas cherry flavored tablets. Maybe not my proudest moment, but whatever, it was definitely not weird for me to walk up to the register at Walgreens and buy medicine for gas... It worked out in the end though, because Oh Mylanta, brittney did end up saying yes. Surprise, they definitely weren't already going with each other...(yes I just used two ellipses in the same paragraph, so what?)
I'm so sick of complacency in my Christianity. I write these papers for Bible every week and each week I seem to find something like "Yeah let's be unified, or inviting to people, aware of what we believe and why, cognizant of our people surrounding us and how we are perceived, etc." Then it seems like every week nothing changes and it just bothers me. I can see myself gaining knowledge and stuff to affirm my beliefs I suppose, but my actions don't seem to show it, and it infuriates me. I feel like my attitude is right, my heart is on the money being hungry for God, but I just don't feel like I have accomplished anything. I want more.
Also, I made a tumblr for no reason. I don't even really know what it is, but whatever I guess I will figure it out. Even though from what I can tell it is a blogging thing, maybe I will just follow bands with it.
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