Listening to voices, and David compared to us

Time for another blog post. I have decided to use that tumblr account that I made as a place to compile my music. Not much is really new right now from what I have posted on purevolume and youtube, but I will probably post some different stuff on there sometime. Here's the url if you want to check it out: http://aaronsalzano.tumblr.com/
In other music news, I said I was going to write a song after last blog, and I totally did. It is not my best work or anything like that, but I might record it sometime.
I wonder if famous artists have trouble listening to their own music. I know I do. Obviously I know that I am not the best, so there will be little mistakes here and there, and that is sort of hard to listen to. And I often hear things I could have done differently that would have made the song better, and that's also kind of hard to hear. But it's not even that stuff. It is just weird, I don't know how to describe it. Like it's sort of eerie or something to hear your own work, and it feels kind of dumb to listen to my own stuff just for fun. I mean, I can play it, or I can listen to people who are way better than me, so what is the point of just hearing my stuff? Whatever, it's just something I've thought about a bit.
Have you ever read the whole story of David in 1 and 2 Samuel. I'm right in the middle of 2 Samuel right now, and it is a lot more brutal than you get told as a kid. Like I am pretty sure that I didn't know until a few months ago that when David was running from Saul he eventually ended up working for a Philistine king, and David was almost involved in a battle against the Israelites, except the Philistine commanders didn't trust that he would stay on their side so they kicked him out. What kind of actions are those for someone who is anointed to be a future king? Then when he is King we all know the story of Bathsheba, where he sleeps with her and then gets her husband, Uriah, a totally loyal commander, killed. This man is a man after God's own heart?
Yeah.
And I think to how it relates to my life, and Christians in general. I do not think I could be called a man after God's own heart. That would be called a life goal. I would love for that to be my legacy, but I am pretty sure David is the only own who gets called that haha. David went from defeating the Philistines with Goliath, to working for them, to defeating them again. Thinking back, there are a few things that I used to think, "I'll never do that," and sure enough I ended up doing it. It's the same thing as David's deal with the Philistines, just on a personal level. I look forward to reconquering those aspects in my life, as David did with his problems. What did he do when he made a mistake? He repented. And repenting isn't a simple "Oh, I'm sorry." It's a change of heart and mind. So I thank the Lord for David, because he shows how you can be a godly man despite making mistakes.
I keep listening to different sermons and clips, and I do enjoy how each pastor has their own style, and yet they are all on the same team(obviously I am referring solid preachers, not like Joel Osteen or Rob Bell or anyone really controversial Biblically). Like Pastor Dave uses life stories and he likes puns, groupings using alliteration, meaning the first letter is the same(heck he is like a physics major or something, organization runs in his blood), and he uses tons of verse references for each point he makes. Matt Molt uses more life stories than Dave, and that seems to be where a lot of his jokes come from, and I feel like he uses one passage a lot more than Pastor Dave does. Like he backs it up with other scriptures, but it's not like 25 more references like Dave. Molt also focuses a lot on spiritual gifts. Driscoll is much more in your face with his points, like he will yell. However a lot of people think that is all he does, and it's just not true. He is very often quiet, and whether he is quiet or loud, you can always tell that he is very sincere.
I could mention others, but I got my point across, and I don't want to look like a connoisseur of churches and pastors like C.S. Lewis talks about in Screwtape Letters. Just sampling different churches without having a home is not good, and I don't want to look like I am promoting that. I'm all for the idea that God places us in churches for a reason, and we don't have to like the sermon every week for it to be God's place for us.