Moses and the burning bush, everybody knows, that he was alway doubtin what God could do

Alright people. here it goes.
I am once again attempting to get out of Bible for an independent study so that I can spend my last semester in worship team. I have my doubts about this goal being accomplished, since last try didnt go so well, but it doesnt matter I am going to try. I have already discussed last blog how much I learn in Bible class, no need to reiterate.
I got my queen sized bed, so I am quite excited for my first night of rest in it. I plan on waking up in the morning and saying, "Ill miss you, you were wonderful last night. I didnt want it to end!" Thank you, Jim Gaffigan for those wonderful quotes. I probably took it dirty though, huh?
I thoroughly enjoyed the new Lonely Island song, "The Creep" on SNL last night. It had been far too long since they had a good song on there. And I learned a new dance move haha.
I played guitar at Intersect tonight, and it was pretty good I guess, even if I didnt play my best. I thought Andrew did a good job leading, and yeah, overall I think it went well even if some of the audience was gome for the toby mac concert.
Basketball, what is there to be said. Duke looked trbl today and got killed, liberty is now 6-3 in league but we barely got those last two wins, stephen curry has been a beast recently, and so has Kevin Durant.
As for my basketball, I have been shooting more, which is fun. I was also inspired by the more physical play of d3 ball, so I am attempting to increase the intensity of my ballhandling. It seems to be working so far, and it gets me more tired than normal, so that is always fine with me so that I know I'm improving. My desire to improve at bball was stoked by that d3 game a little bit, so I always love that fresh drive to get better.
I really liked the sermon today at Bethel. It was about Moses and the burning bush, and how God called this seemingly random, itty bitty man like Moses(to quote the W's). However, over Moses life God had given him abilities and situations that equipped him to do God's work. So the point was the God can use everyone to build his Kingdom, so what has he equipped you with and how can you use that for him.What situations in life have you had that God can use to shape you and help others? Yes, I did think of my knee problems yet how God has given me some athletic ability and drive to overcome it. Which once again brings me to that verse I used in my Strength in Weakness post. I am baffled by that verse every time I read, and I dont quite know just why it continues to amaze me so much. It's pretty incredible that God can use our weaknesses to show His glory and strength, and that His grace is sufficient for us, but Id already heard all of this and this passage still blows me away. I am convinced that God will use my weaknesses for His strength, I dont know how or when, but I am kind of excited, even if I dont know what He did til I get to talk to Him face to face.
I was reminded before the prep game of how minuscule my problems are compared to others. I tend to think that I have been quite a bit of trauma, but then I realize that no one around me has really ever died, or had horrible cancer, or something like that. A kid in Asotin died of brain cancer on Friday(I believe that was the day), and it was kind of a brutal reminder of how privileged most of us are. Heck, all I have to do is sit out of playing basketball for 9 months and this kid is on his deathbed? That's crazy, and selfish on my part for thinking about my petty problems as the center of the universe. I am keeping that family, the Asotin community in my prayers, and I also pray that he is in heaven. So keep them in your prayers and remember that we are blessed.
That's all I want to say tonight.

Bothered

I am bothered by several things right now, that I have been thinking about recently. BOTHERED! (Check out robertisbothered.com to understand this joke.)

I dont like when guys bring their girlfriends to the weight room. Maybe I would think differently if I had a girlfriend, but I highly doubt it. I dont like having many people there working out with me, unless we are switching off on who is spotting, and it just strikes me as odd to have a girl spot for me. And no guys that bring their gfs have spotters. It's just distracting. The weightroom is not a social spot. Yeah say hi to people you know, work out your muscles, and get out of there. It's not good for building muscle to sit around for ten minutes talking between sets. Heck, I dont even like to text while I'm working out. But heck, if the sole reason for you working out is to impress the ladies with your muscles, sure bring them along. BOTHERED

I am bothered by altar calls. I will start this subject by saying that I had hoped I would learn some good stuff from spiritual renewal, and it seems like a lot of people really got some stuff out of it. If you did, great for you, dont be offended by my next statements, they are not to bring down your faith or whatever, they are just thoughts. I didnt learn anything. The concert was kind of cool, but because of college class I heard Ryan speak once, and didnt really think it was great. The message was virtually the same as the past few years, it was just talking about what compels you instead of what idols you have in your life. Difference of phrasing. So altar calls, he gave an altar call at the end, first for people wanting to accept Christ for the first time, then if you wanted to have Jesus be the only thing compelling your life, stand up. I did not stand up. I believe several things: 1. Altar calls dont work unless you follow it up, tell someone about it and make a true lifestyle change, 2. It has to be a CHANGE. Do I want Christ to compel my life? Well, duh, but thats what I signed up for when I became a Christian. So, I understand recommitting yourself to that cause, but if that isnt something you are struggling with, why stand up. That is one of my least favorite types of altar calls too, because it's almost like, "if you dont stand up, you are going to hell."If your life was changed by the speaker, awesome, that is truly wonderful. Dont take it personally, I just have some stuff to get off my chest.

I am actually tired of almost all the Biblical teaching that I hear on a day to day basis. Actually no, I like Pastor Daves sermons, and my senior challenges at intersect, but what I hear at school is getting very old. It seems like all the teaching I receive right now is what Paul calls spiritual milk. It is the basics of Christianity, and I am ready to move on from that. I realize that it is very hard to do considering the different levels of biblical knowledge and understanding among Liberty students, but I want something to chew on. I want to grow in my relationship with Christ, and it is hard to do that when we are just going over "dont be bad because Christ was never bad, and therefore it isnt okay to do bad stuff in the Church body." Yeah, I got that one down by now. And some of you are probably reading like "Aaron dont you know the Bible is God breathed, living, and profitable for teaching, instructing, and growing in faith? How can you say such things when it is always possible to get new stuff out of old passages." I know, but in order to get something new out of it, you have to look at passages from a different angle, not from the same old angle of, "why is it wrong to sin in the Church body?" and "why should we put no idols before us?" So I would like something new, because I really do enjoy growing closer to Christ.

Sorry this blog has basically been rants about what I dont like, but sometimes you just have to clear some stuff up.

I am managing to try and record some more, since it is something that I can accomplish while everything else in my life is basically just a build up for something.I have last semester clean up classes to get ready for college, healing my knee, doing drills, and working out for the sake of being better at bball when my knee is better. Constantly searching for answers to what God is going to do with my life through my experiences now. It all seems like it has the potential to pay off, Lord willing, but I am in sort of a lull of actually accomplishing much, so recording music helps.

So that is my blog for tonight. Did you like it, Im guessing no but as you can see I was thoroughly BOTHERED!!!! Ipads, World Cup, and Harry Potter BOTHER me! hahaha

The Go Getter

Yeah that blog name has nothing to do with this post, it is just the name of an odd song on Brothers by the Black Keys.
Well, I have had an enlightening week. It has had it's ups and downs for sure.
I just found out that I have an 82 in Bible for this quarter. This is going to be resolved to where I have my deserved near 100%, my scholarships depend on it and I really dont get why I dont have 100. Spiritual Renewal is going to start with a bang for Mr Taylor, I will tell you that. Hahaha I say that like I am going to threaten him when really the conversation will probably be more like. "Hey, ummm,  Mr Taylor, the report card says I have an 82% in your class, what's up?" and he will respond that he will fix it and that will be the end of the conversation. But really, I am pretty angry that I have to get this looked into instead of just have a 100%.
I hate losing to waitsburg, I dont care if I'm not playing. I cringe at the mention of that town. All I have to say about that visit to Americas greatest town is "There was a foul RIIGGHHHT HEEERRRE!"
I had some people over to chill last night, the usual liberty crowd plus a few ex-liberty people. It was pretty funny, watching Dinner for Schmucks and then just chilling, looking at old yearbooks and telling stories. That seems to happen a lot, but its cool with me. Victor found the Autotune setting on Garage Band the day before so he got to do some pretty funny sound bits. Double Rainbow action, but not as dramatic.
But yeah, Saturday me and Victor did some recording. I got about 1:30 on one of my songs, and it sounds pretty nice. Obviously the quality isnt awesome, but I can deal with it for free recording in my room. Garage band is nice and simple, so I'm hoping to record a good amount. Still on the music subject, I played for Middle School at Bethel this week, not the little kids. I have been told the little kids missed me, but I think they just missed my award winning smile. Anyway, I had some fun with the Middle School worship, it was kind of a weird flashback to see people like jumping around while the worship music was playing, almost like back when I was a middle schooler. I remember being so much more grown up though... Lauren(the lead) came up with the idea that I should sing for Hosanna, so I did. And I messed up. Not bad, but I did mess up. Hopefully it didnt distract too much from the purpose of the worship.
Saturday Victor, my dad, and I all went up to Whitman College to watch Whitman play Pacific University. Whitman was pretty legit, but Pacific was less than impressive. Whitman won by a lot, mostly because Pacific didnt have the ballhandlers or shooters to keep up. Now who do I know that really likes to shoot and works on ballhandling a lot??? Oh well, I'm sure I will remember sometime. Now, I dont want to take away from the fact that these were obviously all good ballplayers, but I think I could do it. However, my desire to play for Pacific has gone down significantly since I did my college visits. So I am hoping that Fox could use some better guard play as well. Oh well, I will work hard wherever I end up, so it really doesnt matter.
I went to Spokane today for a doctors appointment today. I went to the apple store, scouting some nice cases for my Macbook, went to Guitar Center and got a replacement for my apparently broken FBV pedal. So watch out spiritual renewal, Ron's got a new toy. Oh and I went to the doctor. He was quite impressed with my knee, and said it looked "incredible." Nice to hear, and I found out I have about 4 weeks til I can start jogging and doing some jump shots. Very exciting news, I just have to keep taking it easy so as to let my graft really set in the next few weeks.
A couple final notes and Ill be done, no real spiritual message tonight folks. I would like to come up with a band name, I feel like Ron and the Snakes is not quite fitting when most of my songs are serious. Spiritual Renewal starts tomorrow, but I will miss like half of it everyday, so I hope I can still get some good stuff out of it. I pray that it is a great experience for the high school.

Mac n' Snak

Anyone else remember that tv show idea? Me and Dr. Culver as college roomates for a sitcom? It would be the best.
However,  have decided that my birthday present of a 13" Macbook Pro is a bit more practical for college. I mean, I love Dr. Culver, but he parties too hard for me. I dont know how I would get any studying done.
But yeah, its pretty sick and now I dont have to write this blog with video games going on in the background.
In other news, I cleaned my room today. I know, what an exciting subject. But really, my room was so messy for such a long time, and then I randomly decided to clean it. I wasnt told too. How weird is that. My room actually looks good, hopefully I can keep it up.
This week has been pretty pointless for school. I did one chapter in interpersonal communications, tomorrow is some activity. I had my physics final, which was a'ight I guess, and I showed up for half an hour today for t.a. and then went to the club because Mrs Shaddix had nothing for me to do.
And I literally just did a interpersonal communications assignment in the middle of this blog. On my mac for the first time, and it actually saved the document and sent and stuff. Pretty remarkable technology.
My Bible final was really easy, but I am still unhappy that it wasnt anything insightful at all. That is all I will say on that class.
I like being 18 just because it sounds official. I can now sign papers at physical therapy and stuff. yay.
I was given two Black Keys albums for my bday, which is a nice experience. I realized that my music library has broadened dramatically in the past year or so, which is probably a good thing. The only weird thing is that Ill e talking about bands I like and people can agree with some and then  can go to a bunch of others and they wont like it. I know that is not uncommon, but a while ago it was just hit or miss, you like what I do or you do not.
I just realized how incredibly sore I am from my workout today, but I wasnt sore at bball until we did those last 9 pushups. I know it sounds pathetic that 9 pushups would make my soreness seem worse, but holding your pushups down is a nice way to open those muscles for some lactic acid, so I guess it makes some sense.
I realize that this blog is currently sounding like an Amber blog, but whatever I guess I had some things to say that werent related. I will try to structure the last few paragraphs in a more classic fashion.
It is crazy how much CBC reminds me of the show Community. And interpersonal communications just makes it even more dramatic. We talked about an assignment in class today, a paper that is due next week, and the info for the paper was on the projector screen, but also found online. The random old guy in my class pulls out a video camera and points it at the screen to capture what the assignment says. At least one other time in class I saw him pointing that camcorder at a piece of paper, and I have no idea why you would do something like that. Maybe he is making a video about daily life or something. That sounds like an assignment in a community college class. My teacher, Mr. Wutzke, reminds me of the teacher on Community that says "Seize the Day!" He sort of looks like him, and then he has a few odd perks. When asked how he is doing, he will always say great and give a smile. When a member of my group is missing, he will come sit down with our group and tell us how we should give that person a very hard time for not being here to contribute, or give them a zero when we give group members grades on the chapter overview. If he says Carpe Diem, I will walk out of class.
So my challenge for Intersect is to journal each day, i missed yesterday. I dont plan on updating my blog everyday for this, but today I will write my quick journal point on here. I read 2 Timothy 2, and in it Paul write to timothy that in a big house there are all kinds of jars that are used for "honorable or dishonorable" purposes, but that anyone who cleans himself from wickedness will be useful for honorable purposes, and the owner of the house can use that vessel. Now, I wont go off on removing wickedness. I will say that these jars are made of gold, silver, wood, and clay, but it doesnt matter what we are made of in order to be used by God. It doesnt matter how awesome we look, or how gifted we are, we just need to be clean in order for God to use us.
Two last random notes. I did complete my 30 day ballhandling challenge. If you didnt already here, I also got a skype account, aaronsalzano is my account name.

Strength in Weakness

"So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."- 2 Cor. 12:7-10(ESV)

I know, I know, I am tired of talking about my ACL all the time, too. But I will be honest, this week was incredibly stressful for me and basketball. I watched Liberty get beat twice, 1 to a team we should have destroyed and have destroyed in years past, and another to a pretty good team where I would have loved to help. This left me utterly disappointed and angry. Then I came home last night and picked up my Bible. I am currently reading 2 Corinthians, and will finish it tonight. I came to this passage and could not believe that I hadnt picked up on it before. I am sure I have read it before. I have heard "your grace is sufficient for me" since the song Jehovah Jirah I am not at all saying that me playing would have made me conceited, because I am just that good. I am not, that is not my point.

Look at it. Chew on it. Each time I read that passage I think of a new point in there. God's power is made perfect in weakness. His grace is sufficient. So no matter if I get injured, He is enough, why would anything else matter? Paul boasts in his weaknesses, because the Lord's work can be shown through weakness? It's so incredibly mindblowing that this passage is hard for me to unpack in writing. I do not ever plan on getting a tattoo, but for real, if I had to get one, it might have to be those red letters. Talk about a great daily reminder. I'm sorry, I was planning on writing something super insightful on that passage, but I really cant but it any better than Paul. I am just blown away by the meaning in that verse right now, i think even moreso than last night. I cant wrap my mind around how amazing God and His grace are. 2 Corinthians is a sweet book, read it.

Alright off of that, I have finals this week. I have a lab to do, a Bible paper to write, Physics studying, and some interpersonal communications. I really wish I could write something more insightful on Bible, but I have to basically cover everything we have already mentioned this semester. Physics and the lab arent too bad, I like that class because it makes some pretty good sense usually. Interpersonal communications has its ups and downs, but its not too bad. I am glad that I dont have the other teacher, because I like reading the book more and doing group work every day more than writing a journal everyday about my feelings and how I deal with them.

Music now. I laid out a decent list of songs that I think would make a solid album. So each song needs some workshopping, some more than others. I would like to record next CBC quarter, because I wont be taking any classes, but I also want to get some sort of job, so we will see how that all plays out.

The Black Keys performed on SNL last week with Jim Carrey, and now I really like them. I have liked a lot of their songs in movies, I just never knew who it was. I will probably invest in some music of theirs soon.

I co-lead music today for grades 1-5 at Bethel today. I say co lead because though I sung and played guitar, that girl Becka did a lot more talking to kids than me. Surprise. The 4-5 graders were more unenergetic than I am naturally, yet wanted to talk a lot, so they got a nice lecture about being respectful and worshipping. AWKWARD. I wasnt even a troublemaker as a kid, but I always got mad when people would give lectures like that, so I know it doesnt help people worship, but this time I was the one up front. While Becka and Terry lectured, I stood there awkwardly waiting to play. I guess it happens, whatever. I understand why those lectures are given, but it still bothers me. Of course, when people treat me like that, I usually just revert to ridiculing them into realizing how ridiculous they are, so maybe the lecture is a more "Christian" approach. I dont know, it for sure gets me in less trouble than ridiculing.

Other than that, I thought the sets went well, we were much more in sync than last week. And dont get me wrong, I am very thankful that Becka can talk to the kids, because I sure am not good at it. Being energetic? Hahahahahahahahahhaha.... Okay this blog is done, I'm sorry Blogger is erroring thats why that one bit is black

Slow Down

So uhh, Ive been thinking a lot recently...
I was thinking the other night and came to the conclusion that my childhood was filled with a double standard. I dont know what to think anymore. This is incredibly serious, important, and all around life changing. Here it is: Is being a "square" good or bad?
Think about it. We use the phrase "be there or be square" as if being square is a really lame, bad thing to be. Yet, I think it was Sesame Street that taught me "Its hip to be a square." So, in that instance, being a square is pretty freaking awesome. I just dont know what to believe anymore, man.
On a more serious note, I think God might be telling me to slow down a bit in life. If you couldnt tell by previous blogs, I'm pretty excited about college. I kind of realized just a bit ago that, though I am taking my time deciding, praying about where to go to school next year and stuff like that, I am sort of just rushing through this year. A few things havent gone my way and so now it seems like I have just been trying to get this year over with and move on. That is totally the wrong approach. This is quite possibly my last whole year with a bunch of people that I have grown up with and truly love being around, and there is a lot of awesome stuff we will do and have done that is totally worth slowing down for and savoring the experience. I dont want to look back at this year and say I was just wasting time waiting to go to college. How lame would that be? This revelation probably wont change what I do a whole lot, but it's a new mentality, so I will work on slowing down and enjoying my time.
Another aspect of slowing down that I need to work on is listening to God and what he has to say to me. I realized that I have been listening to a lot of songs about being quite and resting in God and such, but I just didnt think about what the lyrics meant. It's pretty cool how God works out stuff like that sometimes. I was challenged at the senior meeting for intersect this week to spend an hour in silence focused on Christ sometime this week. I wont go into it much, but I did it, and I think it was a good thing. It really helped me feel a crazy amount of peace, and that was pretty awesome.
This guy at the club keeps saying "what's up dude" to me as he is coming in, wearing a blue coat with hood pulled up tight, even though he has already made it indoors when I have seen him. I do not think that I know him, so it kind of creeps me out. I told you strange people talk to me a lot.
I realize this is a pretty short blog for me, as I just have a few more small things to say. We have a game against Asotin on Saturday that I am anticipating. We had a game Tuesday against WWVA that I am still unhappy about. My birthday is Tuesday and we have a game against Touchet that day. Lastly, I am sitting on the computer in my basement and my brother and Michael are playing Fallout, and it is kind of annoying me. So I'm done.

I'm just a 325is of a guy right now

So today I did some singing in church today. Now, I wasnt the only one singing, and it was for 1st-5th graders, so I dont know how much they cared about me singing. I know they enjoy me being there, just like I always enjoyed older kids helping out, since they were so cool. I'd like to say I did this performance nerve free, but even in front of little kids I was kind of nervous to sing. That's okay with me, its a good place to start on my performing in front of people resolution. I dont think it is quite the right fit for me, I'm to serious to lead for a bunch of kids. Though next week I am taking the lead pretty much, but this girl Becka is going to do the talking to kids part, so that works for me. If it goes well, maybe I'll move onto some high school stuff. We shall see.
I have been saying for a while now that I am a BMW of a person. Yeah I need repairs now and then, and they come at a high price, but when I am in good condition, I go strong. Also, If you keep fixing me up, I will run great for a long, long time. Then recently I realized that my car has basically been with me just for this period of life that I have gotten injured. I got it less than a week after I first tore my ACL, and it has been with me since, undergoing its own amount of 'injuries.' What I am trying to say by all of this is that my car has represented this stage of my life in it's own way. Nothing more, nothing less. I have been thinking about getting another car since this one has had a lot of money put into it, and I dont want to keep dumping money into it. However, these last two years of my life have been a mess at times, but I cant control what happens with my life and how often I work properly. I dont know what I think about all this, I just needed to say it.
I think I need to work on some spiritual stuff. I have this desire to grow closer to God but I struggle to get over some bad habits that I have, like anger and pride. Pride is a very hard one for me because I like the stuff that I take pride in. I'm proud of my work ethic and skill in basketball, of staying in good shape, of generally being well liked, and other truly good things, and I dont want to change that stuff about myself, but my approach needs to change I think. For example, not comparing myself to others on the court, and not worrying about how good other people think I am in order to simply play how the team needs me to without thinking about stats. I struggle with that stuff, and it needs to change not just so I can be a better teammate, but so that I can get rid of my pride and grow to who God wants me to be. I will never attain my potential in basketball or spiritual life without dropping some pride.
This show called The Cape started tonight, so I am watching it while blogging, and let me tell you, it is a nice experience. Nice action and it's pretty funny. I will warn you some of the stuff with the superheros is pretty fake or goofy, but its fake and goofy like a comic book, so I am totally okay with it.
Well I was going to end there, but I thought of something else. I keep reading Brian Welch's book Stronger, and he talks about these crazy emotional experiences with God. Like kind of trippy sounding stuff, crazy awesome stuff, but a little crazy sounding. I'm guessing brian could use it because of all the drugs he has been on, obviously he relates to those crazy emotional experiences so God let him know that He is better than any high a drug could give you. But I never experience stuff like that, and I'm not totally sure why. I'm just curious about the whole deal, because Im totally sure about my relatonship with Christ, and from what I have read and heard, Brian has a true relationship with Christ. I understand that everyone speaks to God in a different way, and He gives us each spiritual gifts, but there is a drastic difference in how God shows Himself to me and Brian Welch. Sometimes I wish I felt more emotion when praying, and then other times I'm fine with a lot of logic and musical worship. Just another thing I have been thinking about but dont really know how I feel about it.

Communication of the Interpersonal Variety

Alright quick blog post, since i was going to do it yesterday but blogger wouldnt let me for some reason. then I will get to doing my 12 Ephesians applications for Bible tomorrow.
So second quarter of CBC has started, and I am only taking one class. Interpersonal Communications. Basically, how to talk to other people. Wait  no, thats not even true, because it also talks about body language, so just communication in general. It seems pretty easy so far, and Ive heard thats how it is the whole quarter. But I do like it too, its pretty interesting and one of my reading groups is ridiculously diverse. Its me, some football player that looks really familiar but i cant place where from, a pretty stocky, tattooed white guy that wears like flatbilled hats that say stuff like pimpit, a kid with a bunch of facial piercing that talks way more intelligently than i first thought he would, and a big black woman. Talk about some interpersonal communicating skills. My other group is more normal than that, except one girl today had to ask for everyones name like 3 times in a 20 minute period. Theres five people in the group, its not very hard. So far reading the book, I feel like a pretty good communicator, which I did not expect considering my lack of talking to people all the time. Oh well, I am okay with taking the class, its cool so far.
I basically finished the two songs I was talking about in my last blog, I know you are all impressed. And I am liking Future of Forestry, i dont remember if I said that already.
I am quite excited about hearing possibilities for the New Orleans Hornets coming to Seattle. It is not even close to happening yet, but I heard just today that there are already buyers in Bellevue who want a team in Seattle, I dont know if they mean the Hornets. I would be an immediate fan.
I have to figure out what to do for my senior activities and pictures. I turned in my senior pic, cuddly ron will be my baby pic, but I dont have a middle age pick. I also never did my Kingdom Project, and I am not totally sure what i will write for what LCS has meant to me. I will probably write something about a close knit group.
I cannot explain how much better I feel when i work out and eat well. It is an amazing thing, that even after a hard work out I can feel better than I did before tearing up my muscles. I really dont have any desire to eat fast food because it just makes me feel like crap compared to healthier food. Its like someone you used to date, "I cant believe I ever went there."
So, I filled out a leadership scholarship for George Fox on Sunday. i dont know what type of response I will get, because it asks about challenges I have been through and work ethic, which I feel pretty confident about. However, it also talked about facing discrimination, which I have not done a lot of. I managed to pull some stuff out for the odd questions for me, so it looks pretty good in my opinion, but its a really hard scholarship to get and I feel like there will be people that are like minorities, and president of their class since eighth grade, and an eagle scout, whose parents died so they have raised their four siblings by themself and are paying their own way through college. Then I stand no chance. So we will see how it turns out.

An Eventful Year Awaits Me

That's basically what I realized as I was waiting for midnight to come around last night. Looking ahead, this might be the biggest year of my life, event-wise. And, so far, it looks like they should be good events. Bittersweet at some points, awkward at some points, but overall, pretty nice. I'm talking about graduating, leaving home 9 months out of the year for college, going off, away from my family and long time friends, and then adding, definitely not replacing, some new friends. I will spend about 2/3 of the year rehabbing my knee, and I will work on bball in hopes to make a college team.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.- Proverbs 16:9
Here's the deal. All of the stuff I listed above, I want to look back in a year and say, "Yeah that went how I planned." But I dont know that's how it will happen. I dont know for sure what college I will be at, though I am getting closer to making my plans, I dont know what's going to happen with my knee, and there are a million other things that I have no clue how they will go down (yeah I just used the phrase 'go down' get over it). Hahaha if you had asked me last year, I would have had a completely different idea of how I thought 2010 would go. I didnt even know if I wanted to play college ball or not, much less that i would tear my ACL again.
What never fails, is that the Lord determines my steps, and He will be with me through 2011, I can say that with 100% certainty. And you know what, as long as I keep growing closer to Him, I dont really care how the rest of the year goes. I could not go to college, I could tear my ACL graft again, and even though I have absolutely no desire for either of those things happening, as long as Jesus Christ as with me, I dont care.
Now, I was reading in 2 Corinthians last night, I just started it, and in 2 Corinthians 1:3-11 Paul talks about suffering and comfort. It's pretty deep stuff actually, I dont want to butcher the whole things meaning by trying to paraphrase it for you, you can read it. However, in verse 7 it says "Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort." So, I hate harping on the whole ACL issue, but as I have said before, its a big deal for me so I think about it a lot. Good stuff can come out of it, but I do view it as a suffering, and it is always good to be reminded that there is comfort at some point. I've learned a ton from these knee injuries, I think grown a lot spiritually and learned a lot about myself, but I kind of want to move away from knee sufferings haha.
So, my resolutions for this year. I am going to skip college and graduation, those dont count as resolving to graduate and go to college. Those have kind of been in the blueprints since, ummm, birth. My resolutions are to 1.add to my faith and knowledge of God, 2. Work hard and make a college bball team, 3. Record an album, 4. Get more comfortable performing musically. There's probably some other things, but that's all I can think of now to put on a list. Again, these are all hopes of mine, and we will see how they turn out.
I am working on another two songs at the moment, hopefully they turn out well.
Excited to see what 2011 holds, Ron